Monthly Archive for July, 2008

Since I figure tomorrow is going to go by really fast for me I thought I’d write up a quick post for everyone. I’ll be out of town August 1-3rd. I’m bringing my laptop however I really, really, really doubt I’ll have any energy or time to reserve for emails and blogs. One part of me is totally terrified about the weekend and another is kind of excited. I’m gonna wake up nice and early. Pack up my suitcase, and Daisy’s stuff. Fill up my car. Then I’ll be in Chicago for two nights! I’m excited because I decided to get a hotel room and the place has a nice outdoor pool. I haven’t gotten to go swimming yet this summer, and in Wisconsin it’s special thing to be able to do. There are only so many months it’s possible. So hopefully I’ll get to do that. Otherwise, it’s music fest like crazy! I’m going to keep to myself and just enjoy the music. I’ll probably end up carrying little with me, (if I can manage that), and just wandering around aimlessly trying to find the bands I wanna see. Now, I’m off to check the weather forcast so I know what to pack! Have a super awesome weekend guys, and think good thoughts for me!

Well, let’s just say I learned the hard way that those in soft socks, should not run on wood floors. Especially around corners… I felled down! Gah, in other news I’ve been awake for 36 hours or something… since like 2PM yesterday? Eck, it was a rough night but I got a lot done! What do you think of the new layout? I’m still tweaking it to my liking but I think it’s fun (and it matches my member’s area now!) I spent most of the night online burning my eye balls out, then I laid down because my eyes hurt so, so bad! Then I read… a lot. I’m reading (among others) a fan-tab-u-lous book called “Style Statement: Live by Your Own Design.” At first I opened it with skepticism, and I still haven’t made a final verdict as to whether my style (think much more encompassing than fashion!) can be defined with two words, and an 80/20 ratio. But it’s inspirational and divine at the same time. They write a lot about the significance of words, contrast, subtleties, patterns, and have these lovely descriptions for words like feminine, timeless, allure, graceful, etc.

I’m ridiculously over-tired and fried. But, Lollapalooza is in THREE DAYS! Hooly moly! I decided that I’m just going to run around and get sweaty and take lots of pictures on my cellphone. And hopefully not be tempted by all the crap food that would make me ill. I’ve been having issues with digestion lately. Stuff runs in the family and I’ve always had trouble eating breakfast in the morning because it would make me feel sick at school. (I spent most of my elementary/middle years getting to know the school nurse.) So now it’s really, really catching up to me and I have to keep away from anything really rich. My weight issue, as mentioned previously, is beginning to get annoying. Every time I decide to check my weight it’s gone down a pound or two. And I’m like, Nooo go up, up, up! Quite the opposite battle most people have with their scales! I’ve never had trouble maintaining my regular-size weight (when my meds don’t interfere) and it’s difficult to even think about eating at all! It was always such a natural thing I did. Eat whatever, stay the same weight. Now I can’t seem to keep it on. The Mum wants me to have the doctor check for thyroid issues but my phobia of having my blood drawn has only grown since my last visit (how many year was that now?) Gaaah, I just hate them taking my blood. It’s so … uncomfortable! So I’ve just been munching on snacks all day like crazy to get all my calories and stuff. But thanks for all the suggestions too! My mummy does take care of me sometimes, but she isn’t much of a cook either. Well, I’m off to read and write and hopefully keep my eyes open for a few more hours somehow.

Aye, I took some time for R&R. My brain was becoming overwhelmed, exhausted, and essentially useless. I can’t say that I made it to the zine fest… there was a family get together planned on Sunday. (Which doesn’t fully exuse my non-attendance.) Egh, I’ve been burnt out. On every level. So I think I’ve regenerated enough hit points… er… I mean… ENERGY to get back in the game and update my damn blog and website! (Eeeek, I’m showing my geeky bloodlines…er, tendancies!) I have to say that I’m completely absorbed by the book by Gina Trapini, “Upgrade Your Life”. So much of my computer/nerdy habits were really unproductive, repetative, and pointless. So I’ve been integrating a lot of her neat little “life hacks” into my daily routine. I recommened the book to anybody who uses a computer for a length of time during the day. She’s neat!

Personally, there’s not much to report. I still haven’t made any damn friends here and I’m beginning to feel hopeless. I can no longer say “I just moved here…” Ugh, I’ve been here now since February (not this apartment but Milwaukee). I wish I wasn’t so damn nervous! I have to double/triple think everything and then I just freak myself out of doing something I probably should have just gone ahead and done anyway. I need someone to go to dinner with too! My mom keeps commenting on my weight and my brother poked at my spine the other day (noting that is “stuck out” and it wasn’t supposed to do that). I don’t have an eating disorder. I just have a lazy disorder. Haha, with food comes dishes. I hate dishes. And with complicated meals, comes… lots of cooking. My oven is turned off so I can’t make anything on it (not that I want to). But I’m just not a cooker. I like to bake cookies, and muffins and cakes and delicious desserts but… that doesn’t solve my meal problem. Where’s dinner and a movie when you need it the most?!