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My mind has been so cluttered lately I forgot to actually post a blog about my dad. He passed away this past Thursday. None of us saw it coming, but now, looking through his stuff I believe his mind was failing him for a few months prior. I’ll be on a brief hiatus while I’m reorganizing and rethinking life. My dad was such a great guy and I learned so much from him, I’m even learning more since he’s passed. I only wish his body hadn’t failed him because he had such great ideas and dreams. I’m staying strong through this and really seeing a silver lining. But I am sad for the loss of future moments we may have had with each other. However, I am glad he is not in pain anymore and I can only wish every bit of him still left in this world can blossom into everything he’d wish it to be. I am sorry we could not have had 1 million more moments with each other.

• Struggling with what my dad would want right now. How do you even make the decision to 'cut the cord' and see what happens? I miss him. #
• You could have an anxious moment when you realize how much wor… More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• Getting nasty headaches lately. Hopefully all I need is some Tylenol. I need spring to come early. I'm dying for some fresh spring air! #
• 1000$ Walmart Gift Card! Offer ending soon so hurry up! See details http://bit.ly/cdEXgQ #chancesare #stay #UNotFromTheHoodif #
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I answered a bunch of questions on here: http://www.formspring.me/JoodieShy today. I simply don’t have the energy to do much else. Things have gotten a bit rougher and grim looking for my father… Now his bills need to be paid and nobody has the power of attorney so it’s one huge stressor in my life. I’m wishing for some good news so I can stop worrying, but it really is taking up so much of my energy to make sure I take care of myself that it’s hard to keep up with my internet duties. My mom mentioned I looked skinny so I’ve gotta make sure I’m eating. My medications can suppress my appetite a bit so I usually need to remind myself to eat a whole meal, and with my dad being sick I’ve been forgetting a lot of things. I keep forgetting where I’m parked and what day it is. The little things seem to just slip through the cracks as insignificant. Thanks for all the well wishes! I’m not a Christian but I really appreciate the thoughts you guys have for me and my dad. I know all the positivity goes somewhere in this world, and I hope it makes him feel better… even with a breathing tube down his throat. My mantra is, “Whatever happens, it will be for the best.” I’m going to just keep saying that until this is all over with.

• 5 of 5 stars to Celebrating Time Alone by Lionel Fisher – http://bit.ly/6RW0UU #
• Read The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin – http://bit.ly/a3bKHI #
• Read Making It All Work by David Allen – http://bit.ly/begfM6 #
• Read Organize Now! by Jennifer Berry – http://bit.ly/cD46Le #
• You may appear less flexible than you actually are today, but … More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• Although you do appear focused on your work, there's more goin… More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• Maintaining balance isn't so easy because your mood swings are… More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• I'm #reading The Freedom Manifesto by Tom Hodgkinson http://bit.ly/cemr9S #
• On page 65 of 352 of The Freedom Manifesto by Tom Hodgkinson http://bit.ly/9eMzGo #
• Now he might have meningitis in addition to the cancer. This is getting really messy and confusing. #
• True Life just aired again. That actually cheers me up a bit. Hello everyone! #
• RE: That's the most frustrating part, he's confused and incoherent. I can't make out a single word he says, and if I d… http://disq.us/cwhep #
• The smartest thing you can do today is to pay extra attention … More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• Goodnight Internet. I need to pick up my brother tomorrow. Gotta try to sleep if I can. #
• Your friends might be planning something this weekend that sou… More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• My dad is in the ICU with a breathing tube, etc. It's so hard to see. I just want to talk with him one more time! #
• You could easily set yourself up for disappointment by idealiz… More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• You could be lazy or self-indulgent and skip your exercise rou… More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #

Hey everyone! I just noticed that True Life aired yet again on MTV. I’m really excited every time I see new visitors and readers interested in my website and my life.

I’m going through a very difficult time right now with my dad and I’m wondering what to do. Should I keep blogging? Do you want to hear about this part of my life? It’s a struggle and I’m just not sure if anyone is interested.

Anyways, leave me a note to just say Hi if you want! I’d love to hear from my new visitors. It really could cheer me up right now.

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• On page 139 of 224 of Celebrating Time Alone by Lionel Fisher http://bit.ly/cF44HT #
• Just joined the Sex community. http://mrtweet.com/community/sex?jt #sex #
• RT @funkybrownchick: "Sex Explained Graphically by Pens" http://bit.ly/dr4SHK (via @HDW) lmao! in reply to funkybrownchick #
• The list of things I love and adore is a strange one. #
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• My dad has cancer. #
• Just took my 106th mugshot! http://www.dailymugshot.com/main/show/28151 #
• He was sort of out of it but I think he called it: http://ow.ly/1824E #
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• Q:What is your favorite pose when creating a … A:I like when I can sit or lay. But my favori… http://formspring.me/JoodieShy/q/180507284 #
• I feel like a momma bear. Need to save my cubs and make everything okay. #
• Oh f**K.. "Chaos reigns" just scared the crap out of me. I hope I never run into a fox in the woods. lol. #
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• Your attempts to hold a centrist position now could backfire, … More for Libra http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=7 #
• Visited my dad again today. Still don't know what type of lymphoma. Anybody dealt with something like this before? I still feel so lost. #
• On page 163 of 224 of Celebrating Time Alone by Lionel Fisher http://bit.ly/agYRFn #
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• Lost all motivation to do anything but read, watch movies, or play games. My mental capacity is tapped. #
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• Diffuse Large B Cell lymphoma. Well I guess that's that. This stuff makes me tired! #
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