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My girl Daisy has been so great to me lately. She’s been my cuddle buddy on lonely nights, and my sidekick while I’m working on this new project of mine. Everytime I go out to eat I think of leftovers I can bring back for her and well… other ways to spoil her ridiculously. I also just finished reading “The Big Moo” by Seth Godin and I remember reading a quote in there that was something like, “If you want gratitude, get a dog.” And it’s true. Dogs are very different from people. All my girl does is love me till the end of the world and having her has been such a great experience. I really think it’s been one of the biggest learning experiences in my life, aside from this website, and moving out mostly. Being responsible and getting ridiculous amounts of love back in return is pretty amazing. Well anyways, I was thinking of her because I’ve been on Twitter a lot lately and I read this article about dogs with Twitter accounts. So cute! I got the article via (best dog beds). Well anyways if I knew what the heck was going on in my dogs mind half the time I might just set one up for her… but uh, I think her thoughts are pretty simple, “rub my belly” that is all. By the way, thanks to all the new Twitter followers out there, I think I’ve gotten the hang of the trend and it is pretty fun so long as I don’t get sucked in for hours.

Psst- Keep voting in the sidebar, I’m loving the feedback so far for the site. Also, I’ll be posting about the Birthday Vacation thinger you can find in the sidebar as well. But if you want to make my birthday donate to the fund!

1. How many speeding tickets have you had? Accidents? One speeding ticket (oppsies!). And I’ve been in three accidents, none when I was driving. One was rather traumatizing and left it’s mental scar for awhile.
2. Boxers, briefs or commando? Uh for guys? Boxer-briefs of course! Not sure if this is for me, but uh briefs for me if I had to pick… I guess.
3. Have you ever had sex in your office or your place of employment? Well my home is my office, so yes. Haha! Even with a ‘contracted co-worker’ or boyfriend, whatever you want to call it.
4. Do you own a motorcycle? Do you ever ride one? Do you wear a helmet when you ride? No motorcycle. Never ridden one, I get nervous. I’d wear body armor if I did though probably.
5. Ever been skinny dipping? Noooo I haven’t. Will you take me? I don’t need to get arrested though!
Bonus: Ever been arrested? Turned someone in/had someone arrested? Never. Please no. I get claustrophobic in certain situations and jail seems terrifyingly social. Never ever ever wanna go to jail. Thanks.

By the way, vote in the sidebar on my new poll! I’m looking for one new feature to add and breathe new life into the site. Love to know your opinions. If you choose ‘other’, leave a comment with your ideas!

I was just checking my blog stats earlier today and I saw that someone had searched for “I love myself porn” That was a really cool moment. Because I really love doing what I do and I do it for myself. I’m glad people out there are realizing that substance and quality really do exist in some websites.

On a totally different subject, I may have come to a nice, tidy conclusion. I haven’t been taking an sleeping medication for about a week and half (maybe two). Ever since breaking up T I believe… whenever that happened! And so I attributed my sudden clarity and burst of energy to the whole losing excess baggage type thing. However, last night I was wired (not sure why, I watched Watchmen and it was kinda boring, maybe that’s why) and I knew I wasn’t getting to sleep anytime soon. So I took one of my older prescriptions just for the night. The less I use it, the better it works when I do, so in the event of me being wired like last night it worked well and I slept a long time.

And now for a realization… I went out to dinner with my mom, and I could not for the life of me concentrate. I was distracted by everything. There was a tv behind her head so that didn’t help, but I just couldn’t keep a thought for very long. Meaning… a sleeping pill makes me unproductive, unfocused and unfulfilled. Really I didn’t know it stayed in my system for the whole day after. But I still have my momentum going, my apartment is spotless, my closet has been cleaned out and reorganized, my dishes are clean, I’m excited about blogging and my website again… and yeah overall the ‘breakup’ thing (not really sure what to call it) gave me a breath of fresh air and a new perspective. I even told my mom I kind of liked break ups. I get so much done! A life refresher of sorts. So no more sleepy pills for me and only healthy relationships in the future. I’m a compassionate, and devoted girl and I deserve the same from others. Maybe I’ll reconnect with T… but I’m guessing he’s not interested in the ‘work’ it requires.

I’ve gotta say, I’ve been very, very productive lately and have a wonderful new website in the works. One for all you lovelys wondering how to break out in the raunchy land of the Internet! So if you were one of the MANY that asked me “how do you do it?” I’m getting prepared to share my experience with everyone. Leave a comment and I’ll send you an update when the site takes it’s shape.

Everytime my browser accidentally thinks I typed something other than youtube (joke), I land on these weird websites with these ads that are beginning to bother me. I shouldn’t be surprised though… I doubt ad quality counts for much in the times we stumble on “these” sites. But basically, the campaign is “Still watching porn?” And I had to think about it for a minute, but I was a little offended. I mean… what’s wrong with porn? They mean to imply that real sex is always better than porn. Hardly. Also, the ad is for some company that finds local girls to fuck or whatever. But don’t lots of people in relationships watch porn? I mean, I’ve watched porn with most of my male friends, and all of my boyfriends before. It’s enjoyable. (Like sharing your taste in music.) Also, what if your lover just isn’t home? What’s wrong with porn while they’re away? I know some women get jealous if their man watches porn and I just think that’s the silliest thing ever. I’d rather he virtually watch another womans vagina, rather than up close and personal. Seriously.

And besides what about finding local men to fuck? Note: Not actually looking. These sites are really not designed for women. Why does all the female oriented porn cost money and look so cheesy? (I’m not attracted to football players or muscle men, sorry…) Women can be just as cheap as men. Wtf?

Basically I don’t have much news to report so you get a little rant. What are your thoughts?

I like this weeks questions from TMI Tuesday. I could say a lot more, but I think I covered it. Hopeless romantic. Old soul. Lover. That’s me. Enjoy!

1. Would you stay in a loveless relationship for the amazing sex? Maybe for a short time, depending on how miserable it was otherwise. Fucking a good friend isn’t such a terrible thing. But fucking your worst enemy is sorta desperate. And if it was really all that bad there are some really amazing toys on the market that have done better things for me than any man ever has.
2. If you could only have one, which would you choose: love that lasts forever or great, body numbing sex? Love that lasts for ever. I AM a hopeless romantic. I also love sex, but one ranks slightly higher for me. I can take care of the body numbing sex by myself. Who says it takes two to tango???
3. Looking back at your past loves, which one should you have married/taken back and who should you have tossed earlier than you did? Well… all two of my ’serious’ boyfriends dumped me. All of the boys in between also decided I wasn’t for them. So there would be no “taking back” on my part. I won’t sit around trying to convince someone all day that I’m right for them. I would hope it would be plain for them to see. I suspect they saw who I really was and knew they didn’t deserve me. So I wouldn’t change anything, not that I could anyways.
4. If you had one last fuck in you where, how and who would you “give it” to? Geez, can I pick a celebrity? Probably not… plus I’d just say something cheesy. Someone in my life right now? That’s weird to think about, I’d probably allow T to fuck me for my last time because he’d been around the block and knew what he was doing. Wouldn’t want my last fuck to be awkward or anything so I guess that’s what I’d do.
5. Which is more important sex, money, love and happiness? (and no, you can’t pick’em all) Happiness. Flat out. I’ve always told myself that is what’s most important. I can’t say for sure whether love guarantees happiness but I know for a fact that sex and money do not guarantee you happiness. It is the highest goal for anyone. Some people just think sex makes them happy. But after awhile it would just be sex. And it might not make you all that happy. About love, I think, that some people, might truly be their best, happiest, most productive, and fullfilled selves even without that special someone. Love from friends and family is a necessity to life though. But it alone can’t make someone happy unless they find what fulfills them.

Alright! I want to thank everyone who showed up for the member’s chat on Monday. I had a blast and was so happy to talk to all of you. I really hope it made up for last week’s mishap. I’m in a much better place now that T is gone and I can focus once more. *phew* Me and my downtime… I whipped out my old Polaroid camera for the first time in months! I have such a strained relationship with photography. It’s quite confusing. Don’t my legs look yummy though?! They usually looks so skinny and awkward. Must be the lighting.

Alright you guys! I need a major pick me up. I’ve lost my little boy toy, but guess what I found? Hot products for all this alone time I have now. Cute outfits for the site. Oh and you will LOVE this one: The Televibe! Quote: “Once the 2 are connected by either the phone or computer the administrator (you) has control of the vibe. The touch tones from the other phone or computer will make your TELEVIBE respond with one of 9 distinct functions!” You can fuck me from your computer! Um oh and incase you really love me there’s this one. All on my wishlist (and more)! Send me something. My mood is in the dumps and we all know orgasms increase serotonin or dopamine or whatever that happy drugs is in your head! I’m pretty sure it’s the most basic way to cheer a person up right?!

Okay enough pandering… I just had a crappy mood swing yesterday and when things really sink in for me, I sorta get stuck that way for awhile. I don’t plan on dating for now. But maybe I’ll reconnect with some old friends in time to have fun things to do in our short Wisconsin winters. Oh and I rescheduled the member’s chat for next Monday again. Don’t worry I’ll be setting all my alarms and sticking post-it notes to every flat surface in my house. I felt really bad on Monday so I hope I can make it up to you. I’m gonna go try and fix myself a proper meal of some sort (Ramen?) and figure out how to motivate myself to run my errands today. Blegh, so totally not feeling responsible right now at all!