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EDIT: Important (please read)… Member’s area links are all fixed and functional. My message board is having some sort of design error at the moment but I’m troubleshooting right now. Also, updated my contact page (members, I urge you greatly to just take note of it). I have gotten a few emails from people lost in the switch, and I have been able to manually add them back in. Please let me know if you’re still having errors! There’s a big discount/sale coming up so stay tuned for my next post!

What an amazingly shitty holiday season for postlapsaria. I’m beyond sick of my hosting company being completely flakey. I have felt so incredibly crappy for the past week that all I’ve been trying to do is get my email up and running (it was down for several days, I’ve lost many important emails forever). Also trying to get the new login for my members area to work. For now all my members should be able to login here: http://postlapsaria.net/sblogin/login.shtml/members/. Just bear in mind that a few of you who may have signed up in the past few days might not be in the system. If that’s the case please email me. I haven’t even begun the damage control. Certain links in the members area are incompatible at the moment. So I need to do some tedious recoding work to get that fixed, but so far the news lander page, webcam page, and contact page are just fine.

I have felt so bad this entire time with things being down. I mean, the holidays are busy and draining enough for me, but then add something like this and it was just ridiculous. I barely got anybody any gifts because I couldn’t afford much. So I ended up just doing things like spending time with my mom or dad for dinner, chit chat… the works. With lots of apologies included. I can only extend subscriptions 6 days. However, that whole process is entirely manual… and well with 100+ members it would be a HUGE amount of work to add six days to each subscription date. I really prefer doing something else, like a live cam show for everyone and also all the new content I will be adding throughout this week. But I don’t know, I feel guilty… even though it’s not my fault and I couldn’t have predicted it but I pretty much feel like I failed myself.

Plus I’m fucking sick of you MTV jackasses who keep getting all preachy and shit with me. I don’t want your fucking opinion on my lifestyle! I don’t give a shit whether you approve of it or not. And most importantly, stop being so god damn hypocritical. Shut your fucking traps… all the pity and sympathy you throw at me is useless and a waste of your time. I don’t pity myself. And I don’t care if you think I”m pathetic… but uh, if I really am so pathetic, why search me out on the internet just to spill your two worthless pennies at me? You are pathetic. You are all ignorant consumers who ate up the MTV garbage like candy. Get a fucking life! Really, would you fucking care if Heidi from the hills got run over by a car? Really… I mean like… enough to search out her email and tell her how dumb she is for walking in front of a car? Because if so, please waste your pathetic speeches on someone else. Oh yeah, did I mention that you should leave me the fuck alone?! If I get any more harassing or threatening emails or comments I’m going to the police. I’ll shower you with the attention you crave so badly (you = point out how hypocritical that statement is. me = laughing my ass off.) I’ve got my problems like EVERYBODY else, and I need to sort through them just like everybody else too… and being harassed and name-called and shit on doesn’t help AT ALL. If you pity me so much, please keep your mouth shut. You’re hurting WAY more than helping the situation. And I know some of you love to be malicious and feel all superior and shit but cmon, leave me alone, I’m just trying to wake up, eat food, not die, have my family, and lead a simple life. I don’t care what MORE you think I should be doing with myself. Really, that’s my favorite line. You make me laugh hard. But here’s the whole fuck you, shove it up your ass statement everyone has been waiting for. And no, you can’t comment on this post. I’m going to make you work a lil harder if you want to bash me. It’s no fun if it’s so easy is it? Oh, and by the way it’s completely legal for me to post anything you write me on my website. If you’re desperate enough just shoot me a holla at joodie@postlapsaria.net. Yea, you’re not getting any response from me, but feel free to spend 15 minutes writing some shotty, grammatically lacking love note!!

Aside from that, members, I love you all dearly and want to knock on all your days with a giant stuffed teddy and tell you that I’m sorry. December got fucked up. January will be amazing. I’m fighting for it. So let the past be the past and stick with me for my major improvements set for this next month! <333

Brrrr! It’s cold in here!

I have an official case of the winter moodies. I’ve been down and up the past few days and blogging seemed like just such a chore. But really, writing down even the most mundane things helps make my day seem a little bit more manageable and such. So, I haven’t been doing a whole lot due to the weather here. For those who don’t already know, I’m in the Midwest and it is COLD here. I already have a really hard time keeping any body heat due to anemia and my weight so going out to clear my car of ice and snow is my least favorite idea right now. As a result, I’ve been staying in my apartment for days. The only exception being going down the staircase to grab my mail, or in today’s case to let my poor dog Daisy smell some fresh air and shake her legs a bit. (By the way, today was my first of the season near catastophic ice fall/slipping that occured.) Ice. Urgh.

There’s a members chat tonight, Friday the 12th at 8pm CST. I hope any of my new members that recently joined up with make it. You can find me on justin.tv/joodie! I’m hoping for a big turnout for this one. Come help get me in the holiday spirit!

Other news… let’s see… T and me seem to be getting along well. I enjoy spending what time I do get to with him. I think our casual, sexy, flirty, friendship is probably the most either of us should agree to. Though he’s a wonderful boy, he likes to disappear, and I think that makes him all the more mysterious and intoxicating to me. But not in the best of ways. Haha. More in a not-able-to-stop-wondering kind of way that probably is pretty creepy. Yikes! Anybody remember my old domain name? Points for anyone who does! I love mysterious boys. Though I could go for a nice cuddle with T right now. *hmph* I’ve got the rudie Joodie toodie wintery blueeeees! Hold me! Oh I’m being silly. Life is decent, I’ll probably make rent, I might even have a guest for Christmas dinner. Those are all good things I should focus on. Not the lack of christmas tree in the living room or clear sheets of ice trying to kill me. Yeah, I’ll focus on the happy things.

Members got candy this week!

Oh man, so sorry it’s been awhile for a decent post! I feel like I’ve been very busy, but at the same time it sorta looks like I’m not getting anything done. Which is a strange feeling. The MTV show aired again. So hi to all the newbies out there, thanks for all of the support! It’s been such a crazy time since that all started. I feel like it’s been years, when it really has only been months. But I’m living in a wonderful apartment and I’ve been able to go on a few dates even! I still get nervous about going to stores and places by myself, but since I haven’t really got any friends anymore I’m getting used to it. Seems like all my old pals have moved on to different things and I just don’t know what to talk about with them anymore. So, I’m basically alone in the city looking for some friends my age. But it’s hard because I’m kind of a weird person. I mean, if you don’t have a problem with what I do for a living, then it’s always some other belief of mine that seems to push people away. But hey, I’m open about absolutely everything, and I’m finding that most people can’t handle that, but I’m gonna work to find some people who can. So my status is lonely but happy. Confusing!!! Sorry!